DAY 12 - 40 Day Sadhana
You are already perfect!

Planning For The Good Not The Bad


We all plan for the good things we want to happen in our lives.

We all plan for the good things we want to happen in our lives. We never plan for the bad things – accidents, injuries, chronic illnesses and devastating challenges. Yet these situations often serve as the best teachers and bring the deepest and perhaps the most permanent healing.

I was not prepared when my life turned upside down. Nor was the suffering I lived through in “my plans.” I was happy and full of energy as I ran out of the waves on the dark sandy beach of Acapulco, Mexico. In one second, I twisted my ankle. I brushed off the pain, as I was in pretty good shape and thought nothing of it. But the pain grew every day. Months of treatment and an endless stream of doctors seemed useless. One doctor thought it was just a sprain, but could not explain why my foot was purple as a beet and when anything touched my foot electric nerve like shocks would be sent throughout my body. My hopes began to wane and I began to think it was more than just a sprain.

At the age of 26, I had to face a new reality that had never been in my plans – my leg was becoming paralyzed. I could not move my right leg from my knee down, and the possibility of spending the rest of my life in a wheelchair was looming over me.

Events that led up to this foot injury and events that followed became a stepping stone for me to learn of a different reality from what I wanted and dreamed my life to be. I am embarking within my own self to share my story of tragedy and triumph, of extreme pain and the heights of ecstasy.

Growing up in a family that adopted a strict religion from the East, my life was far from normal as a young child and quite honestly has never been normal ever since. I realized that I needed to find the joy within each moment.

Looking back, I see why I had to experience everything that I did. It is my hope that whatever challenges you face in your life you are able to look beneath, beyond and above what is happening at the moment to discover that there is more than meets the eye in the midst of the trauma, that you are still connected and interconnected within everyone, and that yes, there is hope.

I hope that you find what you are looking for, the piece of the puzzle that is missing to experience true happiness. It is all within you at this moment.


  • 1. What are your plans, dreams, goals & bucket lists?

  • 2. What are the major life events or illness or trauma that have defined you?


How to : Sit down calmly and quietly in a cross-legged position. Close your eyes and see through your eyelids, using them as a screen to watch the dramas. Go inward, within your heart center. Meditate deeply. Nothing should move. Continue for 7 minutes. Then do Breath of Fire for 2 minutes. Then form an “o” with the mouth and breathe very long and deep through it for 2 minutes. Total time is 11 minutes. To end, inhale deeply, hold, and tighten your muscles. Exhale. Inhale again and hold this precious breath. Slowly relax.

“Compare your stamina from when you started and your stamina now. See how your life is nothing but stamina. Your knowledge, body, mind, and spirit are of no use if you do not have a hold on your stamina, yogic endurance. People who cannot endure cannot cure their bad habits. God is infinite, you are infinite—but you deal with God through limited endurance. Endure emotions, commotions and feelings—you will walk out of it. Slowly and gradually this will give you self- mastery, and that is life.” Yogi Bhajan